One Year Ago Today.....

my dad passed away. I didn't think today was going to be as hard a day emotionally as it has been. I have been missing my dad every day (many times a day) since his passing but today was just tough. In lots of ways its seems longer than a year since he has passed away. There have been some big changes in my family, a brother moved to SLC, another brother had a very large crisis and lost his job and is starting a company on his own, we are expecting to add one more to our family, a little girl....I don't know I guess I feel like my dad has missed so much this year, and there have been so many times that I have wanted to go to him for advise. Everyone says after the year mark things get easier....and I think that is true but in lots of ways I don't want it to get easier because then it is that much longer since I last saw him. I don't know if that makes sense, but I like having him so close in my thoughts and my mind and the longer time goes the less I have of memories a year ago with him. To help me get through these days of sadness I turn to my belief that we have a loving Heavenly Father who has designed a way for us to be with our loved ones again after this life. I will see my dad again and we will live as a family again. As my dad was going through this ordeal last year my brother Russ said to me, "Kelly, this life is just a blink of an eye, we are on the other side before we even know it." Although this year has seemed long in many ways, I can't believe my little boy is already 2 and is so smart. Time really does fly. It is so important to cherish each day and cherish those we love because as I can see in my life, time moves so swiftly. I love you dad and miss you but there have been several times I know you have been close and watching over Cruz, Shawn, and me.